Planting Seeds


JoLa café, on SW Corbett Ave. Portland, OR

Sometimes you need to read your own ‘sh*t’. ‘Know what I mean?

I’m in a period where I feel more fear (money related) after an extended period of being in grad school and without professional work… While I know the practical steps to finding a job, nothing is working. I applied to about 20 jobs yesterday, from senior manager, project architect, office manager, to receptionist. This flurry of applications has not been successful. I am not on top of my best self, but struggling to keep above the flood.  So just going back over my post about joy… you know, ‘Your joy, no man taketh from you’ helped remind me of the real goal: expressing good, finding more of God reflecting in and around me.

Sitting at a communal table with the ‘laptop-set’ at JoLa Café here in Portland, I am overhearing two women. They are in circumstances similar to me. Older, laid off, one in tears because the way ahead seems so dark.  The other leading the conversation with some tips for setting up a consultancy. It’s obviously a great example of networking.  I am not alone.  It seems that many older workers have become too expensive to hire, unhip, and too uncool. Waves of gray – hitting the wall!

What to do? What to do?

Seek refuge. Seek safety. Seek God. (If you are one who doesn’t naturally think in terms of a power outside yourself, stay with me).

Take a virtual breath. Look up and around yourself. What’s going on here? What’s percolating? What’s trying to emerge? It’s ok.

I have to remind myself how ‘this’ works… first the grain, then the fruit.

The ‘work’ is to see God clearly, love good dearly, … (I know, I know, amazingly similar to the song  ‘Day by Day’ in Godspell, the Stephen Schwartz  musical.) Finding ourselves– spiritually, lays the groundwork to find ourselves a job too. Somewhere, and I can’t find the quote… but it says something to the effect: ‘What God has fixed in heaven, shall be fixed on earth’. I DO know Christ Jesus asked us to pray/think: ‘As in heaven, so on earth.’ Our work is complete, whole, fun, perfectly suited to us WHEN we find it in heaven first.

Our practice may be architecture, law, engineering, education or business…. but the work begins by first turning humbly to God for inspiration. Making meditation and prayer a priority in our lives will create a shift. A shift which moves circumstances into place so that everyone benefits. Trust this.

“The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, long suffering (patience), gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law”. GALLATIONS 5:22-23.

En route back to Portland, Pix by Alexis

En route back to Portland, Pix by Alexis





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Do I really believe that God is Love?

I am asking myself this, this morning….in the midst of my trip to San Francisco to visit Ian, Andrew and Lindsey while looking for architectural work.  There’s been a disappointing ‘almost-job’, crushed expectations, good meetings but no offers. I have discovered the charming village of Pt. Richmond across the bay from the city and come here to decompress from everything.  It reminds me of the way of life back in small Michigan towns.  People are especially open and friendly here.

Sitting in a cafe, thinking about the way things have gone this past week, the thought asks:  Do you really believe God is Love?

We may acknowledge that statement as a fact, or a truth, … but, do we believe it?

Do I believe?

In some ways, it is the ultimate question of faith.  Faith presented as a love request from the ultimate Source. Do I really, really believe that God is Love, that God loves me… then that thought expands to, does God care for me, provide for me, shelter and protect me?

‘Cause maybe, THAT’s what’s going on.  And my stubborn-minded prescriptive determination to have things MY way is masking the love God has for me.  For you too?

(Already so much has been given me, including running into someone at church my first Wednesday night here, who so kindly offered to let me condo-sit for her giving me a whole extra week in the area.  And, her place was within blocks of the motel I’d been staying at, meaning I already knew the area.  AND, her condo sits on a lovely canal with sailboats perched alongside.  AND, turns out we knew each other 25 years ago in the Christian Science Church in Indianapolis.)

How cool is all that after all?  And, I was doubting?

So resting in that idea, that God IS Love, my breathing slows, my brow relaxes, and my joy returns to consciousness.

Everything is ok.  God is Love.



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